Common ground

The email read: "Here's where we'll camp and this is where we'll walk ok?" I looked at the map showing vague directions to a campsite near Bala with resignation. Whatever...
David and I used to camp together as kids but I'd never really felt as enthusiastic about camping in North Wales as he was. The rain became more persistent the further west I got and the temperature gauge showed 9 centigrade. we planned to walk Aran
Fawdawwy, one of the more remote Snowdonian peaks, a little short of the 3000' mark and often overlooked for neighbouring Cadair Idris.
And so it went, the vast arena of North Wales, temporary abode to a ramshackle crew of sad poets, dreamers and fallen angels, and for us, two brothers, common ground.

Tryfan
"We'll walk Aran tomorrow yeah?" but David had already been camping for five days in mostly inclement weather and I could tell that his spirit was dampening.
 Nevertheless, we were back several weeks later, camping near the the fabulous Mawddach estuary at Bontduu. For me it was one of the best times of my life and it made it all the better for being right in the middle of a busy period of school residencies. I just couldn't help but sit around smiling, I felt so free. Geoff came over from Hereford to join us on a hike up Tryfans' north ridge. David had arrived with his friend Paul and we were later joined by Pauls' girlfriend Cath who has the greatest laugh on earth. Most nights were spent goofing around the campfire until around 3am, innocent lunatics under the watchful gaze of the night sky. Joseph arrived later in the week to spend the rest of the week camping with me and summed up the  area beautifully:
"I didn't know there was anywhere like this."

Aran Fawdawwy
Joseph and I stayed on when everyone else had to leave and go back to their homes and jobs. We moved campsites to Brithdir, only a short drive from Dinas Mawdwwy and Aran Fawdawwy. The mountain wasn't particularly difficult or precipitous but in the sun it was a long hard slog. David phoned to see what we were up to. "You're up Aran? jammy B*****d..." and then the call was cut off abruptly by the loss of signal.
As we approached the summit, Joseph sang, "I've got a body, a very busy body and it goes everywhere with me...."

The Carneddau, Cnicht and Aber falls
Other momentous mountain walks followed including a nine mile trek across the Carnnedau peaks of Pen yr Ole Wen, Carnedd Llewellyn and carnedd Daffid. We camped near Criccieth and were joined by two of my brothers in law, Elwyn and Graham. Being mid October, we had the site to ourselves and there were fun times around the fire playing guitars and mandolin, light shows with flaming sticks and the most incredible view of a spiral arm of our own galaxy above our heads. Half an hour or so after making a speech about moderation, Elwyn got drunk and was twice saved from falling in the fire. Unfortunately no-one could save him from falling on his tent, breaking a cross-brace in the process. "I AM NOT A CHILD" he slurred as we tried desperately to squeeze him into his now flat tent to sleep it off.
The following day was dry and mild and we made our preparations over breakfast before driving over to Capel Curig for the start of our mountain walk.. The ascent up Pen yr ole wen was steep and unrelenting but we were rewarded with panoramic views across the sea to Anglesey and west across the Glyderau. Elwyn appeared to be unaffected by the previous nights excesses as he strided effortlessly up the steep gradients. The wind was blowing so strongly across one part of exposed ridge that we could have leaned into it, but the 2000' drop beyond deterred us.
The descent overlooked the distinctive peak of Tryfan and the Glyderau to the right. The peaks of Glyder Fawr and Glyder Fach had been the first mountain walk that David and I had done several years before and we both had fond memories of the steep climb up Devils kitchen and across the eerie, rock strewn ridge between the peaks before descending near Cwm Tryfan in a sudden covering of thick, swirling mist. 
Back at the campsite the next day, we spent time on a nearby beach collecting interesting stones and shells. The beach was remote and the shoreline was littered with all kinds of debris which we sorted through enthusiastically for firewood. "What are you going to do with that?" asked David as I struggled to carry a huge length of wood on my shoulders. David was a perfectionist when it came to fires, a true purist, a pyromaniac boy scout who frowned upon any amateurishness
regarding the choice, cutting and burning of wood. His doubts were quickly dispelled on this occasion as my wood length split easily with the axe and burned beautifully as only driftwood can, bleached of all impurities by the sea.
Several days later, Lynne and Joseph came over and we made plans with David to walk Cnicht, not a huge mountain but a real solitary one with a distinctive peak. Elwyn and Graham had gone back home and the next day David and Lynne went home leaving Joseph and myself. We spent time on the beach where we were treated to a view of a rainbow spanning the sea from the Criccieth coastline over to the south east near the Rhinogs which were now topped with snow.
We had a good walk around Aber falls and we could see the northernmost peaks of the Carneddau white with snow. The nights were getting colder too with sharp frosts.

Offa's dyke and the Gospel pass
It was the following year when I made the suggestion that we combined a backpacking trip with a wild camp and David responded eagerly by email. He'd been thinking along the same lines and had recently bought himself a lightweight backpacking tent. We had this uncanny similarity in thought patterns in spite of our differences and relative lack of contact and it only became apparent on these trips. We would say something out of the blue that the other had been about to say. We plucked strings on guitar in the same idiosyncratic way using two fingers, not five. 
We drove to Hereford and picked up Geoff before driving on to Hay on Wye where we camped for the night. The next day we made our preparations over breakfast, packing everything we'd need for the wild camp ahead. We walked through the town looking for the start of the Offa's dyke path which would lead us up into the hills where we were quizzed by a local landowner wearing tweeds and plus fours who
squinted and made strange twitching movements as he stuttered and stammered whilst addressing us. He was curious about our intentions, loaded up as we were with huge rucksacks and politely suggested that we should be discreet if camping wild. There had been other symptoms of inbreeding in the pub the previous night. It became glaringly obvious that it was a pub for locals and for locals only. "YES?" the barman had barked." As the place filled up, there were loaded glances and whisperings, paranoiac and increasingly hostile. As we left, a 'youngster' commented to the barman just loud enough for us to hear something about magic mushrooms. 
Our hike however, took us far away from the sad lives of these retards into increasingly beautiful countryside and as we passed Hay Bluff along the Gospel Pass we encountered several people wandering around with their eyes earnestly scouring the ground for magic mushrooms.
Eventually we came to a youth hostel and made enquiries about camping. It was a relief just take the dead weight of our rucksacks off of our shoulders for a while. The girl in the youth hostel told us that the local landowner, Clive was particularly intolerant of people camping on his land and most of the land for miles around belonged to him. We were told that some unfortunate wild campers had been woken abruptly in the early hours by Clive pointing a shotgun at their heads. Our experiences in Hay On Wye and memories of the film 'Deliverance' determined our next course of action, we'd camp in the hostels' field. This wasn't  exactly in keeping with our collective vision of the freedom of a wild camp but we had the field to ourselves and the use of the hostels' facilities and we were tired. We gratefully set up camp and wandered up Lord Hereford's Knob, free from the weight of rucksacks. On the way up we came across patches of Liberty cap mushrooms and at the top a clear view across to Waun Fach where Geoff and I had walked across frozen ground one new year. 
Later that evening after enjoying a well earned meal we lay back with heads on rucksacks looking up at the night sky. David gave us a guided tour of the constellations and I Looked up, blissfully happy with my lot, happy in the present company, watched over by a figurine of Ganesha in an outbuilding overlooking the field. We enjoyed the show, naturally high from fatigue and the rewards that come from such efforts until the clouds moved in without warning and the rain fell. "Shows over boys."

Gradbach
Gradbach scout camp turned out to be the only campsite in Derbyshire where fires were allowed and considering that David and I were planning a first ever winter camp, fire was an essential ingredient. Situated near the village of Flash (highest village in England) not far from Buxton,  this was the closest we'd get in order to do a walk that I had in mind starting near Bamford, several miles further north east. The snow had cleared in Leicestershire but was in abundance in Derbyshire. As we approached the turn for Gradbach we were met by a snow pile blocking the driveway. After clearing the path we arrived at the scout HQ, an area with a bunkhouse and a wardens office. There was no one around and with dusk approaching we decided to drive to a field further on or at least I would have except my car simply refused to go up the icy path. David's rear wheel drive car did make it, just and I hastily loaded what I needed into his car. We settled on a spot which happened to be as far as the car would go and set up camp. The spot was sheltered and that evening, around a roaring campfire, we sat admiring the view across a snow covered valley.
The next morning the snow began to thaw and we drove north to Edale on roads which in places had become like small rivers. Even so, everywhere had a raw beauty to it and as we parked up in Edale David commented on how tired he was just from the drive, let alone the walk ahead. We left David's car at Edale, "£3 TO PARK!" he muttered and I drove us to a spot near Bamford. I had been up Win Hill before whilst staying over in Sheffield but the route we were taking, starting from Yorkshire Bridge up Parkin Clough was known to be tough. It was and as we approached the summit we had to hang on to the rocks to steady ourselves in the wind. We descended down towards the road. "There's the next one" I said pointing to the distant Lose Hill. "I thought you said that it was a ridge walk once we were at the first summit?" muttered David in disbelief. "Weeeelll...." By the time we had descended Win Hill and followed the road and track up to the start of Lose Hill we had found our walking legs and even the sunshine had made a welcome appearance. By the time we had reached the summit the wind was again threatening to send us back down the quick way but we looked over towards Hollins Cross and beyond that to Mam Tor and decided that we'd go for it. When we finally reached the trig point on Mam Tor's summit, we proudly pointed out where we had started our walk earlier that day to another group of walkers. They were suitably impressed, Win Hill seemed impossibly distant. We descended the hill back to Edale and had dinner by the fire in the Nags head before collecting David's car (£3!!) and driving back to Bamford and from there back to Gradbach.
The winter camp became a must when the long, cold and dark days of winter forced us indoors. "I hate being stuck in" we used to mutter in agreement.
We camped there the following year joined by Joseph and again enjoyed surprisingly mild weather. This time we left hastily a few days after Christmas. Lynne and I had been going through the long process of being approved and matched for adoption and Liam, then aged 21 months would be with us soon!
This time we walked along the Roaches, a nearby rocky outcrop. The boxing day tsunami had struck in Asia and I hadn't heard back from my friend, Andrew who I knew was in Thailand. Later, I received a text message from him after several days of worrying silence,  "Happy new year."

2005 and beyond
An ominous start to the new year. David died from a heart attack in May whilst in Wales doing what he loved doing. My dear Dad died two months later.

Aran Fawdawwy and Gradbach revisited
David's ashes were scattered near Criccieth attended by his family and friends. Before that, I wanted to pay tribute to my brother in the best way I knew how. David had never made it up Aran Fawdawwy in life
so a party of us including my eldest son Joseph, David's best friend, Paul, My brother in law Elwyn and his son, Kieran did it for him, taking his ashes up with us.
Later, a party of us camped at Gradbach including David's son, Dylan for what turned out to be the coldest winter camp any of us had ever experienced.
Whilst walking through the campsite, I looked over occasionally at the sheltered area that David and I had camped previously and I could still see him sitting around the fire, content and at peace. Later, I dreamt that David appeared to me at the caravan door (from our childhood) and explained that he couldn't be with me physically but he was only in the tent just outside.
David's spirit lives on, as does the spirit of my Dad who in different circumstances would have joined us up the mountains. He must have sometimes shook his head in disbelief at the antics of his lunatic boys whom he loved dearly. This writing is dedicated to them and to all future insanities.

David's photographs: http://homepage.ntlworld.com/davewynne

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